A Dream

I have a dream...Lol..heard it before? Probably, thanks to Martin Luther King, Jr. Well, I have one too. As some may know, I am getting into modeling, trying to start my career. Well, I have been looking at a lot of pictures done by other models, and I have noticed that a lot of women are doing things that I would never do. And one major thing...they look, and appear to be, perfect. Whats the problem with this? Women are getting it in their heads that we are supposed to be small, skinny, no stretch marks, nothing. No flaws. Well, I dont want to represent that in my modeling. I want to show off my flaws. I want women to see that they are still beautiful even if they have things like stretch marks, or fat. We dont all have to be little and perfect looking, with no handlebars. Well by George, I have a slight muffin top, and I am proud of it! Without the extra weight on my body, I would not have provided such a good home for my children in my body when I was pregnant.
So when I take pictures, I want to put out a new image. We are ALL beautiful. No matter what, with all of our flaws. We are all perfect, because God made us who we are. Not just to try to be someone else, but to be whow we were created to be. God knew us before that egg even split. Before sperm met the egg. Before anything. He knew. And He knew that we would be beautiful. God is Beauty. Beauty is God.

Bad Ways to Seek Attention

Ok, another one. I know, two in one day..come on...Anyways... Like I said, I am going to be completely honest in my blogs. How many of you have done things to get attention? Like tonight, I was sitting on the couch with my husband, and I started calling myself fat. What a bad way to get attention. I know it is, and I don't know why I really did. I mean, I know I want attention, but why did I do that to get it? It is a bad way to get attention. And it doesn't get the attention wanted. It gets more of a "I'm not even gonna respond to that." and then silence. Attention..yes, but not for long. I guess its good that I am recognizing this right now. Ladies, if you want attention, don't use negativity to get it. It doesn't work, and makes you feel worse.

What is it to be beautiful?

I know a lot of women feel the same way and wonder the same things. What is it to be beautiful? How do we, as women, come to feel that we are beautiful? Is it by compliments we receive? Is it how we do our hair or make-up? Is it the way we dress? Why is it, that society has come to create this false image on what "beautiful" is in a woman?
I am going to be completely honest here. Everyday, I look in the mirror, and I find things with myself that I am not happy with. I look at the fat around my hips, my handle bars, my thighs, my arms, my boobs... There is always something I can find wrong. And why is that? Why can't I just be happy with the way I look? Why can't I just feel beautiful? There is an answer, but not many know where to look. I do. Why can't we all just look towards God? After all, God IS Beauty. HE is everything. He is all we need to feel like the beautiful women we are.
We shouldn't be looking on TV, and in magazines. All that stuff is is false reality. Everyone thinks that movie stars and models are the image of a perfect woman. They are not. They have their flaws, just like any of us.
So instead of looking for that false reality that we call a beautiful woman, look towards true beauty. Look towards the Lord. He is all any woman really needs. Next time you feel like you are ugly or all alone, and imperfect, think. Think about who created you, and how perfect He is.