"Ill glady take her place if you let me"

I know a lot of people don't like country songs...but the song "Don't take the Girl" by Tim McGraw is one of the few that I like. This song actually made me cry. It made me think of my husband and how I would give my life for him if I had to. And that goes for my children as well. This post is going to be short...but I felt like I needed to say this. I think people should listen to this song..and let me know if it makes you cry...

Pro-Life or Pro-Choice? Is it really that hard to grasp???

I am a Pro-Life all the way. I believe that aborting an unborn child is murder. And it really is. The baby is alove, beating heart and all, when it is inside of the womb. Now tell me how it is that its ok for a doctor to murder an unborn child because the parent was irresponsible, but yet a person can be charged with manslaughter for killing an unborn child in a car accident, etc? Why is that? Is todays society so hippocritical and naive that it cant realise what the stakes are here? We are talking about a living person. Just because that person hasnt been born yet, doesnt give anyone the right to end thier life. It is not the babies fault that the person who got pregnant was being irresponsible? Why make someone else pay for your mistakes? I am sickened by what the world has become today. Look at our president...funding abortion...why not fund birth control? Nip the problem in the butt. Its more efficient, and less costly. Get people to be more responsible with sex. Prevent it from getting to the state where they want to get an abortion. Stop killing your babies. Be more responsible. If you are going to have sex, then get on birth control.

Forget all of the drama..get back to reality, and TRUTH

There has been something going on inside of me for awhile. I didn't know what it was, or why I was feeling the way I was feeling. Well, my in laws came to visit and i finally figured out what was wrong...I have lost touch with who I am, what i stand for, and who matters most. First off, I am totally finished with trying to fit in with the military wives cliques. I don't care for them. it is all politics and women saying a bunch of bad things about you after you leave. All of you know who you are. Like I said, I am done with it. I am a strong Christian woman. I don't need to fit in with everyone else. I am here, taking care of my family, loving my husband, and that is what God has me here to do. I am not going to do anything other than that. This is what I am here for. I don't need any drama, or even to be around it. Being around drama just brings it into my life. And I don't need that. Why hang around a bunch of people who really don't care about you, what you stand for, or much less, your feelings? What good can come from that? None can. All that comes from that is a bunch of stress and unnecessary anguish. I don't need that. I have never been one to want to be around that. And I still don't want to be around that. Not even to fit in, or be in one of these "cool army wives" cliques. I mean, how horrible is that? Here are a bunch of women that are supposed to be there for you and support you when your husband is deployed. Let me tell you, this is NOT how it really is. It is a crock. I know first hand. They say that they are there to help and to support you but in reality they could care less.

In the 5 years of being a Army wife, I have learned a lot. Be careful who you talk to, and what you say. Because you never know who will stab you in the back. And it is really sad that things aren't the way they used to be. What I want to find, is a group of Christian women, Army wives, and I want to talk with them. See how they feel. See how they have been secluded and talked about because they weren't in. Things aren't the way they used to be in the military. And it is very unfortunate.

All I know, is that I am going to separate myself from these people. I don't want a part in it. Like I said, I don't want it to be a part of my life. I want to be around my family and the people who truly care about me. People who believe in God and trust in God. People who know the Lord Jesus Christ as their Savior. That Jesus is the Son of God. That He died on the cross to save us from our sins, so that we would not have to spend an eternity in hell. I want to be around those who can swallow their pride. I'm not saying I am perfect, God knows I am not. I am human, and I will be a sinner as long as I live on this earth. That is the sad truth. But i know that there is Hope and Salvation. I am done with the games. Done with trying to fit in. I am going to be who I want to be, who I was MEANT to be. I am going to be who the Lord our God intended me to be.

Comfort in our Father

I was reading Captivating today, and it was in chapter 5 and 6. You would have to read it to really understand. But it really made me think about a lot of things. It made me realize why I have all these harsh feelings towards myself, and about healing from the past. For one, I am way to hard on myself, and I was reading a story where a mother tells her daughter to ask Jesus how he views us. And the daughter asked Him and He had told her all these ways in which she was beautiful. So I am going to do the same thing. I will follow up with that.



As for the healing part, I found out that to heal my wounds of the past that I am going to bring them out. I have to bring them forward and face them. And I know that it is ok to cry, that it is part of the healing process. I am going to give everything to God..I am going to bring it out and ask Him to come into me and heal me. I need it. I dont want to hurt anymore.



I have realized that lately I have been feeling very lost. I have felt like I dont know who I am. Who is Sara? That has been this question and when I am around people I feel like I am alone. Like I dont know how to act or what to say because I dont know who I am or what it is to be me. In this also, I know that I need to turn to God. I think I need to really talk to Him and to ask Him the questions that I need answered. I want to seek God and His meaning for me. What is my purpose here? I want to know who I am and who I was meant to be. I want to be what the Lord wants me to be. I dont think I can feel whole until I seek Him. I dont want to feel alone or ashamed. I want to be happy and feel beautiful in Him. This struggle has been going on in me for awhile now. It is hard too because I have no close friends who can relate to me. I really want us to find a church that has exactly what we need for fellowship.



With all this goping on in my heart and mind, I know that I can find comfort in the Lord. No matter where I am or what I am feeling, I know that God has a plan, and I am part of it, otherwise I would not be here. God give me strength and security.