Comfort in our Father

I was reading Captivating today, and it was in chapter 5 and 6. You would have to read it to really understand. But it really made me think about a lot of things. It made me realize why I have all these harsh feelings towards myself, and about healing from the past. For one, I am way to hard on myself, and I was reading a story where a mother tells her daughter to ask Jesus how he views us. And the daughter asked Him and He had told her all these ways in which she was beautiful. So I am going to do the same thing. I will follow up with that.



As for the healing part, I found out that to heal my wounds of the past that I am going to bring them out. I have to bring them forward and face them. And I know that it is ok to cry, that it is part of the healing process. I am going to give everything to God..I am going to bring it out and ask Him to come into me and heal me. I need it. I dont want to hurt anymore.



I have realized that lately I have been feeling very lost. I have felt like I dont know who I am. Who is Sara? That has been this question and when I am around people I feel like I am alone. Like I dont know how to act or what to say because I dont know who I am or what it is to be me. In this also, I know that I need to turn to God. I think I need to really talk to Him and to ask Him the questions that I need answered. I want to seek God and His meaning for me. What is my purpose here? I want to know who I am and who I was meant to be. I want to be what the Lord wants me to be. I dont think I can feel whole until I seek Him. I dont want to feel alone or ashamed. I want to be happy and feel beautiful in Him. This struggle has been going on in me for awhile now. It is hard too because I have no close friends who can relate to me. I really want us to find a church that has exactly what we need for fellowship.



With all this goping on in my heart and mind, I know that I can find comfort in the Lord. No matter where I am or what I am feeling, I know that God has a plan, and I am part of it, otherwise I would not be here. God give me strength and security.